Music to Live By

Did you ever think about how crazy it is that certain types of music can determine what you are doing?

Well, I have…obviously.

This revelation came to me while opening up my iTunes.  I have several playlists and I noticed that may of them are titled according to what I am doing when I want to listen to that type of music.  I have quiet work music (that I’m listening to right now), I have work out music, I have cleaning music and I have belt it out in the shower music.  It’s really amazing how music can choreograph your life.

One of my favorite play lists lately has been my belt it in the shower playlist (insert apology to any of my neighbors).  This has been my favorite lately in utter anticipation for Wicked.  I’m so pumped that my sister and I are going to see this musical in about a month.  One of the songs that graces my playlist from the show is called Defying Gravity.  This is one of the more popular songs from the show and if you know much about Wicked, you’ve probably heard or at least heard of Defying Gravity.

…Something has changed within me, something is not the same.  I’m through with playing by the rules of someone elses’ game.  Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep.  It’s time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap.  It’s time to try defying gravity…

I love this anthem of conquering fears, throwing caution to the wind and putting it all out there.  Not letting anything hold me back from something I’ve been afraid of has been a common theme of this blog.  I’m getting the sense that subconsciously I keep thinking that I was meant for something more that what my life is right at this moment.

Let me clarify here for a second.  In know way do I think that I’m not meant to be right here, right now.  I’m teaching exactly what I’m supposed to be teaching, I’m building relationships that I’m meant to make.  I’m in no way above or better than my current situation.  But I keep get the feeling that I haven’t yet tried defying gravity.  I haven’t stopped second guessing or playing by someone elses’ rules.

So, I ask very simply, a very real question, when is my time to defy gravity?

Such a quiet, yet profound question.  Seven little words that can make me so uneasy.  I guess the only resolution that I have found up until this point (I’ll take suggestions if anyone has anything better) is yet another song.  A song that I’m letting inspire the choreography of my everyday.