To Be...or (Not to?)

I'm not motivated.

In fact, at this very moment I'm typing this blog in order to avoid several things.  Some of the more glaring things I'm avoiding right now: working out, cooking supper, cleaning my bathroom, putting away my laundry and making muffins for my favorite basketball team just to name a few.

I'm sure the reason I'm avoiding these things is not so much because I don't want to do them, but more I'm just tired.  Besides, I looked it up and you can burn 90 calories an hour just by sleeping---sign me up!!  I think a nap sounds WONDERFUL!

In that light, I guess the topic of this blog should probably be motivation then.  Ewww.  I don't want to write about motivation, it's so cliche...  Good thing I've learned that sometimes doing things we don't want to do makes us a little uncomfortable, a little stronger and a little wiser.
(And...maybe I'll burn a few extra calories attempting to put my own spin on writing about motivation...a girl can hope, right?)

Here is how I most often view motivation: kicking myself in the butt in order to strive after more.  So I guess that is where I should start.

Why am I wanting to get more?

(Insert long, reflective pause for dramatic effect)

This brings to mind a discussion that arose while I was at a book study with some lovely ladies: What is the difference between being and doing?

After some discussion this is the overarching message I walked away with.

Being- the act of presence
Doing- keeping busy

Oh snap!  (this would be me working through the uncomfortable in order to reach the stronger and wiser...it is also my way of illustrating those rare but oh so exciting light bulb moments)

Either being or doing are motives for our actions.

There is a huge difference between making my to do list for the purpose of getting more attention, more possessions, more friends, more clout, and making my to do list in order to be more present.

This sentence, as I read and re-read, is seeming more complicated than I intended.  What I mean to say is, you can plan things in order to be more or you can plan things in order to be more present.

I'm no expert at this by any means, refer to previous to do list.  However, I know that when I think about some of my very best memories, I think of the presence that was immeasurably enjoyable.

I think I could handle a life of being more in those moments rather than just doing those moments.

I guess now I'll go and be.  Maybe I'll enjoy a walk outside in the close-to-spring-like weather, or call up a friend and have a long overdue conversation about life...either way, I'll be all there.

Now that is motivation!