Today was a day of really great things.
I had a cranky, crabby, tough day today.
Confused?
I would be too if I were you.
When I woke up this morning I was undecided on how my day would go. Normally I can wake up and sense that right away it’s going to be a ‘I wish I could stay in bed all day’ kinda day, or a ‘this is going to be a rockin awesome’ day.
Today was neither of those.
Today was actually both of those, but I just didn’t know it yet.
Because I was undecided on how my day was about to go I decided that I needed to take some time to talk to God. I found myself turning the radio off and actually talking out loud to God. I’m sure I looked/sounded like a fool if anyone would have seen/heard me. Oh well…not the first time… :)
It’s been a while since I talked to God. I mean, I’ve prayed a lot lately and a lot about specific things, but all my prayers have been in passing or while I’m falling asleep. So, this was different. This was good.
After that, I thought that there might be some hope for the day to turn out pretty good, little did I know today was the day for every seventh grade Math student to ‘forget’ all the wonderful mathematical wisdom their loving teacher had bestowed upon them. It was also the perfect day for all middle schoolers and their teachers to want more than anything for it to be summer….ugh!
So, as you can see, really good and really not so good.
But here is where me making sense of things really does get good. After chatting with God this morning, God showed me that He is in control and He has a plan, He showed me that there is light to look forward to in something that before seemed so negative and dark. It was something I needed.
I was also reminded today after school that the reason that I’m in teaching isn’t to be mad at kids all the time. I’m there to build relationships and enjoy them. I have to be a resilient teacher and have some fun sometimes.
God is so good to me. The lessons I'm thrown into never cease to amaze me. I’m blessed in the rockin awesome days and I’m blessed through the days where I wish I would have just stayed in bed.
Monday, April 30, 2012
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Good Friday Till Now
Well I've made it through Lent. This is the last of my weekly post challenge. It's been good for me. I'm glad I decided to do this, I've been able to reflect often, and you kown what they say about self reflection, it allows growth.
As for the blog today it is only fitting that I write my thoughts on Easter.
My thoughts on Easter as of right now (Good Friday) are very mournful. Tonight I watched the Passion of the Christ and it was very much an experience that left me speechless. I've always read the story of the cruxifixction and I found myself even knowing what the next line in the movie was most of the time. But never had I ever really visually see the sacrifice. The brutal beating, the bloody agony, all of it so real. All of it for me.
Tonight for the first time it is really hard for me to see to Easter in light of Good Friday.
In the past I would go through Holy week thinking and feeling as though things were just fine because frankly, I know the end of the story. But tonight for the first time I can see how devistating and heartbreaking it would have been for the diciples, for me, who watched their King beaten and killed.
Lucky for me, I still know how the story ends. It doesn't end with cross. It doesn't end with pain, blood and suffering. The real Easter story is in the journey that start on Good Friday but is not finished until three days later. I'm just lucky enough to know this already.
After sleeping restlessly, I've concluded that it is a good thing I know how the story ends. Today is a day for celebration, a day to remember the ultimate sacrifice that was made out of great love for us, people who are not good people. It's a day to rejoice in the risen Christ and a day to be reminded of how big we are loved. Sure there is joy in Easter egg hunts and children singing at church, but the joy of all of those thing seems so trival in comparson to the great joy of knowing that I, the greatest of sinners, was loved enough to die for. I was loved enough to be saved.
As for the blog today it is only fitting that I write my thoughts on Easter.
My thoughts on Easter as of right now (Good Friday) are very mournful. Tonight I watched the Passion of the Christ and it was very much an experience that left me speechless. I've always read the story of the cruxifixction and I found myself even knowing what the next line in the movie was most of the time. But never had I ever really visually see the sacrifice. The brutal beating, the bloody agony, all of it so real. All of it for me.
Tonight for the first time it is really hard for me to see to Easter in light of Good Friday.
In the past I would go through Holy week thinking and feeling as though things were just fine because frankly, I know the end of the story. But tonight for the first time I can see how devistating and heartbreaking it would have been for the diciples, for me, who watched their King beaten and killed.
Lucky for me, I still know how the story ends. It doesn't end with cross. It doesn't end with pain, blood and suffering. The real Easter story is in the journey that start on Good Friday but is not finished until three days later. I'm just lucky enough to know this already.
After sleeping restlessly, I've concluded that it is a good thing I know how the story ends. Today is a day for celebration, a day to remember the ultimate sacrifice that was made out of great love for us, people who are not good people. It's a day to rejoice in the risen Christ and a day to be reminded of how big we are loved. Sure there is joy in Easter egg hunts and children singing at church, but the joy of all of those thing seems so trival in comparson to the great joy of knowing that I, the greatest of sinners, was loved enough to die for. I was loved enough to be saved.
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